alone

well, it has been a long long time. travel alone, sleeping alone, being alone.

he is back now. but i still feel alone.

why.

i dont know.

yeasterday we went to tanjung piai, he drove. i dunno what was is his mind. sat next to him, i cant felt his breath. felt so lost. although he hold my hand. although he kissed my cheek. although he hug me.

everything so familiar, but it was so new.

feel the heart which love him so much. feel the warm from his arm. but, i cant feel the love.

Christmas Carolling

This was my first time to join the carolling team without the name of Jesus, but the name of 'money'. This was a great experience that bringing the joy and happiness while making money. Some of the audience do give responses, some of them, nope--as you know..In country M, we have some special race that are quite !@#$%^&*(, people dont like to connect with them normally, but somehow..they hold the power to make big decision..anyway..im not racist, just wish to share, my joy in Christmas.

Our first stop was Leisure Mall, Pelangi. We didnt have big stage, sound system, but we did happy about what we were doing. That was cool. There were some churches members stand there and cheer for us. They asked where are we from, from which church. Haha! Is that mean we are so impressive? i dont know. Next stop were Plaza Pelangi, Pelangi. That place is tough. Kept on singing and that dried my throat. But people do enjoyed in our voices. Love to see when they left with satisfied smile on their face. Hopefully we could bring some joy..or some kind of message to them that Jesus was born, and he is now our King. Pelangi do provided us a pretty good stage, although it was a bit small, too. And the last carolling of the day took place at Perling Mall. That place, is really full of Indian. Basically this shopping mall have an Indian cinema. That's y. We didnt have any stage there. We could only stand on the staircase and sing. No sound system, no stage, no audience, but what inspire me, was that the place have a very good encho. That make our voice so good and round. Wonderful!

There was another place, Jusco, Bukit Indah that we went to. This is the place that the most well-decorated, good envorinment, and good response. Maybe the place are bright enough, it make people feel fresh and new. The only one prob is that the place is toooooo far away from my home. If we meet traffic jam in the middle of highway, we are doomed.

My church Christmas celebration wasnt too bad, too. It was good, but can be better if we hav more time, and more practices. People said the worship part was great, but i dont really think so. It was late when we start, audience not giving good respond because they were not familiar with the songs. They were not dancing with us because they are shy. But anyway, people do said that we did better than last year. Haha! Praisse the Lord!

And we also went to Cana Church on the christmas day. They did a great drama, and that impressed me a lot. When we are living, we dont know the meaning of living. We believed in money, status, but we dont really know where we are from. And Devil, are always there and disturbing us. Thats bad. But people normally enjoy that that. Satan teach us how to hate people, haw to trick people, how to create argument...When we fail to love each other, they are happy. In this churhc, i always feel that Lord really blessing them. Pastor Lim, and his family, do loyal, do humble, do kind hearted, do caring. He lead the church towards another level, and he do it well.

Oh well, christmas has ended. It is time to start my new journey. My childcare centre, my wedding planner...wow..that is really tough..

take care my friends. XOXO.

time to go home

it's time to go home. suddenly i feel that i miss mom so much. i have been staying here for the past 2 weeks, for Big Bad Wolf, for friends gathering, for freedom, for money. but now, everything comes near to the end, it is time for me to pack up all my stuff and go back. i do cherish the time here, arranged books, sorted them out, pricing, cashiering, packing, bought a lot of dunno what books, spent money on books, sing karaoke, met brenda, had fun with ben and steven, stuck in traffic jam, hair cut...but now it's time for me, to go.

i miss my dear dinasaur, he went to UK for 2++ months already. at first i though the distance between us, won't be a prob. but now, i realised that, distance somehow affects us, we are so far away from each other. Do our heart next to each other? something goes wrong. i feel lost, i feel down.

i miss him, i miss him, i miss my dinasaur, i miss my dinasaur.

huueeeee..

Finally, Big Bad Wolf books sale finished already. It had last for one week, sorted the books took another one week. Worked non-stop for two weeks, it was exhausted, tired and crazy. People who came to sales, raised the thunb said good sale. To me, this was really really great! I was not book lover, but since last May sale, i fall in love with books. Fiction, non-fiction, children books, i recognized them all now. The price are reasonable, great, wonderful. haha! in normal book shop, it must be 50 bucks and above, but in Big Bad Wolf, the highest price for those books is RM50!! Can you imagine that?
More story coming. Yesterday was the last day of sale, we all tired, tired, and tired. I spent around 400 bucks for 1 box, 7 plastic bags of books. haha!! This is crazy, man! Will show more in next blog. Take care!

an old blog~

this is a true story..happened in the love world..

"We dont know each other, but there always have the chance for us to know. Only heaven knows, when will it be happen, when we will meet, when we will know, when the chance is coming. From two different world, we know each other. From two different background, we learn to know each other. Is this called "fate"? I dont know..when i looked in your eyes, i know..God Father give me the chance to know you, the ability to love you, and the right to own you. This is such amazing, such perfect world. When you reach your love world, you will know what i mean now. The power of Love, is so great, so perfect, so amazing.."

Do you know the song by Elton John? That is "Your Song". This is their song, which proved their love and feeling. I like the lyric - How wonderful life is while you're in the world. Yeah, its true, it is so wonderful to have your love in the world, especially in the love world. There are kindness, forgiveness, sincere, and love.

Your Song
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

I love this song too. Its because i found this love, is so true, so true, when you really love someone, you will tell the same, How wonderful life is while you're in the world. Thanks them for giving me idea on how to write the blog, i will tell their story here as long as i could. That may be simple, that may be funny, but that is love.



December 6, 2007

the day at home

the day staying at home, is quite diff from the day stayin at 158. actually found that many of us are missing the day at KL 158. although sometimes we argue, boycott someone, or even waste water in great war of 158, thats really memorable and really funny. just now read the short note from nicole's facebook, only realised that we actually spent a lot of time being together, go play, makan, shopping, BBQ, water war..and many many.

the day staying at home, is totally diff. what did i do today? erm, eat durian, online blogging, chit-chat with mom, prepared lunch and washed dishes..maybe, lazy a bit and lay on the bed only..haha.

soon, will be a new day tmr. what should i do??? aarrrgggg!!!!

graduation trip

It was last week, we set off from home, either from PJ or JB. There were 3 cars in total which bringing 13 of us set off to Pulau Tioman. It was a little bit pity that we cant go in the whole class, but well, it was satisfied enough for me to have such a great memery before graduation. The trip was 6 days 5 nights (25May -30May) where we go to P. Tioman, Kukup and Malacca. Only 3 guys: Shen Loong, Ben and Steven; 9 gals: me, Jo, Oriko, Angeline, Jiayi, Wei Fen (haha, is my church member who replaced triny to go to Tioman), Vicky, Michelle Mak, SiEu, OiLing. Triny and Fennie met us up at Kukup in the midnight of 28 May, in exchange, Ben and Steven left on that night, too. Thanks to Jo and SL who drive and lead the way to bring them back to us. Haha!!
It was a lovely morning when we reach Mersing jetty, i set off at 2am and we reached around 4am from JB. Well, we had wait for the other 2 mivys for 2++ hours to reach. Weather was so nice and it wasnt cloudy at all. What a day!! There was an incident happened in the early morning. Maybe i missed out something that is important, anyway, i hoped they had 'friend back' with each other ya!! It was realy hard for us to gather together and travel for the whole week long. No matter how, we used to be so nice to each other, why should you guys destroyed such a good memory which could hardly create again in future?! Luckily, she didnt just left like that, or i would really cry for no tears!!

When we reached Tioman, it was about 12pm. Check in the hotel, not really bad!! I love the scene which the pond is just right in front of our rooms, and small bridge that lead us out to beach, restaurant, shops...Paya Beach Resort, we stayed there for 4d3n, it only cost us RM380, which included 3 nights accommodations, 3 breakfast, 2 packed-lunch, 3 buffet dinner, 2 days snorkelling and 2-way ferry tickets.

However, i was too ill in the first day on the island. I wondered, perhaps the food i took before wasnt clean, perhaps i had no enough time to sleep, or i just too uncomfortable for the trip. I slept for nearly the whole day long and only woke up around dinner time. Surprisingly, dinner was serve excellently. Maybe we didnt expect too good on the food, it really make us eat a lot and satisfied. After dinner we went to the beach and had a cold beer, haha. Beer there is really cheap in price, u know what, 4 cans are only RM10. The night was so long, but i can only spent it in my room with the big warm bed. I was too tired and uncomfortable to chat with them for the whole night long.

The second day, we woke in the early morning as well. It was about 7.30am for our breakfast and we started the snorkelling day at 9am. We went to 2 places on that day, which firstly is an "so-so" island, nothing much to see, corals are mostly in dark and plaint color. Fishes are less as well. Second destination was Ocean Park, a lot of fishes, big fishes were gathering in a small area. I felt a bit pity on them again exspecially i think that place is really too small for all of them. If they were not caught, they are still in the big ocean which is free and huge. This day we didnt bring any bread, eventhought the shopkeeper asked us to do so. I experienced to swim between a school of fishes again. Amazing. Because i dont know swim!! Thanks again to SL, who 'drag' me all the way in the sea and touch the fishes!! I think heaven was jeolous on our holiday, it rained. Before we left the Ocean Park, it started raining. It rained so heavily till we cant leave the place at all. It was so cold, when we were all in swimming suit and only have life jacket for us to cover. Pity SL, he gave me towel and life jacket when he left nothing to cover himself. Haha!! The power of love, cant imagine, huh!!

When we back to hotel, it was about 1pm. Rain seemed unlikely to stop, Oriko and SL went 'da-bao' lunch for us. We all took shower and laid comfortably in bkanket while they were running for our lunch. They are soo nice and good!! Haha! I spent another afternoon in bed again. It was raining, where can i go? Fortunately, it stopped raining around 5pm. Me, SL, Oriko and Fen go to beach, tend to snorkelling ourselves. But the sea wasnt deep enough for us to dive, hard to believe, we actually walked to one small island beside!! Dinner started at 7pm and it was another great food for the day. I ate a lot, coz the day before i was so tired to eat, and play. Now, i was full of energy to play and hang around. Haha!! SL said, if i can eat well play well, it meant i have the energy to start shopping. OMG!! How could he said that?! But, it that true? Yes, It was. Cheers!!

The next day, we though we wont have any snorkelling at first. It was so confusing when we booked the hotel rooms. At first it said we would have 2 days snorkelling, but when we paid, it said only one day for 2 places. When Oriko called again, they said it is 2 days snorkelling. By the time we checked in, they said 2 places in one day for snorkelling. OMG!!! What!!! At the end, we went to snorkel in the third day on the island. Our trip guide - Ah Dan, is a strong guy. Nice and funny. he brought us to 4 places and beach. Totally white sand beach!! I love it!!! All of us love this beach crazily. It was so clean, so white, so beautiful. Really hard to imagine, Malaysia actually have such great beach. This was my first visit to such white sandy beach. Wow!!Wow!! This time we were cleverer that the day before. Haha!! Oriko took the whole bag of bread while eating breakfast and brought it to the sea. We fed the fishes, in a very near distance. I can even touch the fish and felt them swimming beside me!! I was so scared of fish but it was really interesting to feed fishes in the ocean. Only one word to describe my feeling, 'shiock-nya'!!!! It was another lovely day, unforgetable, the fishes were kissing my hand!! haha!! When we back to hotel, it was almost evening time. I took a bath and had a great evening sleep that day. Another small incident happened, one of our snorkelling mask was stolen and we have to pay RM80 for it. But the next day, Ah Dan said no need since the person-in-charge wasnt there. Haha!!

The forth day on the island, it was time to leave. We cant bear to leave. It was such a lovely and beautiful beach that i do really wish to stay there for the rest of my life. So relaxing, so comfortable, so beautiful place.

By the time to back to main land, Oriko lost her bag at the beach. We thought we lost it, but luckily, someone took it and return to her. The guy was kind hearted and just picked it and tend to send to the reception. Thanks to him, or else i think Oriko would really lost her mind!! haha!
Ferry time was 10am, but it was late. SL think they purposely late in order to pick up the next trip at 12pm. Meaning, 2 trips combine into one and it wasted our time in waiting. When we reach Mersing jetty again, it was about 2pm. After lunch we set off to Kukup. The time we reached was 7pm. Just nice for dinner, but all of us were totally tired and sleepy and moody. Barbeque started at 9pm, before it started, me, Sl and Jo sent Ben and Steven to Larkin bus station and brought Fennie and Triny back to chalet. The time we back, it was 12.30am. So tired, dont wished to eat anything. The night was too short for us to rest. The delay ferry, long distance in travel, hot weather, really make me moody. We slept at 3am and woke at 8am for breakfast. The day was so tired and hot. We went to the rainforest, which only cost RM3 per entry, aunty had paid for us. We went there and go for gelong, where feed fishes. Then, it was a seafood lunch waiting for us at the restaurant. Got chili crabs, steamed fish, fried prawn, vege, lemon chicken...a very good meal, but tired in eating.

After that we went to Malacca. It was another long journey to go. We took time 2 hours under the hot weather driven to Malacca. When we reach, it was almost 5pm. Checked in and bathed, and sleep, again. We went to jonker street that night, i was so tired, and a little bit headache, with no mood, i wonder what is it processing in my brain, i just felt lifeless.

The next day, me and SL woke in the early morning, coz they said wanted to have breakfast at 8.30am. But, they are all still in bed by that time!! Arrggg!! Only me and SL took the breakfast and we went to jonker street, shop again!! SL bought a painitng, at RM38. I think it was quite worth as i love the way it draw. Lunch at one nyonya restaurant called - You Ya, nice nyonya dishes as well. A little bit costly, but we all do enjoyed in it. After that we went to Taman Rama-rama, the place which attract kinder garden children to go. Haha. This was my second visit and i think, it didnt change much. Fennie is so funny when she saw the butterly. I though gals are most probably love butterfly, but...haha!!We could heard her screaming hundred miles away!! hahahaha!!!

By the time i came out from butterfly farm, it was my time to leave them. From Malacca to JB, it was another long long trip to go. 3 hours time to go back to Masai, my house, and SL need to back to JB.

Cant bear to leave, cant believed a actually spent 3 years time in Kl with them all, laughter, sadness, we share and we were together. When i hugged Oriko, i know, she was really love me as a great friend; when Angeline hugged me, she said 'thank you', i dont know it was because of the trip arrangement, or the time being together, or study week we did revision together, but, it was just so many nice time. lastly, i hugged Jo. Three years, started from the first school day, we are already mean to be great partner, great sister, and great friend. Maybe there were argument, but all gone. I cant bear to leave them, i was so sad.

On the way back, i cried. SL said i was so silly to cry. Now, i only realised. Even though we cant spend our time together, but we can still keep in touch, msn, sms, phone call...never drop this relationships, never leave each other behind. We were once friends, it means forever!!